Perfect Schmerfect

When I started this whole thing (blogging, TV, radio, etc.), it was to try to be a good example of plural marriage.  Since then, I have talked to many people and have indeed had a positive impact of people's perceptions on polygamy.  Every now and then, I will get a random email from someone, thanking me for being an example.  I am grateful for that.  Last week, though, I got an email from someone who told me that I was the "best" example of plural marriage, hands down, even over the Kody Brown family.

Since then, that proclamation has disturbed me.  So I have to issue a caveat.

I am not perfect.  I am not always the best example of plural marriage.  I am petulant, spoiled, petty, mean-spirited, cynical, rude, and overall a man-child.  I fight with my wives.  I sometimes take a perverse joy in twisting their words, because I am so verbose and good with words.  I hold grudges.  I suffer from depression. I feel sorry for myself a lot.  I am just plain hard to live with.

I am amazed that my wives have put up with me so long.

If there is any success to my marriages, it belongs strictly to my wives.  They are patient, kind, sweet, loving, understanding, and long-suffering. I am totally aware of how lucky I am.

If there is anything good to be said - it is this:  I love these two women with all of my heart.  I am not perfect, but sometimes I feel that my poor chest cannot contain the amount of love that I have for them.  I pray every day that I can become a better husband to them.

So an example - maybe.  But not a perfect one.  And Kody Brown has four wives.  I have only two.  I am sure that they are doing MUCH better than me.

A while ago, I went on hiatus, because I was overwhelmed at how much I suck at this sometimes.  But I realized that I still have a lot to say on the subject.  So I brought the blog back.

I just wanted to make it clear - this lifestyle is difficult and not for the faint of heart.  I don't want to put across any false images or candy-coat anything.  Aight?

Just sayin'...

And as far as the letters - keep them coming.  I LOVE getting them.  It reminds me that I am doing this for a reason.  I love feedback.  I love questions.  I love talking to people.